Typing the outline for my senior paper…

I’m doing it on Borderline Personality Disorder (the thing I have..) and I didn’t think that it would be this fucking difficult. At first, I was almost proud to be doing my research paper on it, (I have to present it out loud to the class) because not a lot of people my age even know what it is, and I thought it would be very informational and open their eyes. Well, whenever I read my information, or type it out, I begin to cry. It reminds me of my current self, and also who I used to be, and all of the things I’ve gone through.

I have no fucking clue how I am going to present something like this in front of my class & teacher. Honestly. I can’t even get through a few sentences without getting emotional.  I already have a hard time presenting/public speaking.

I’m just really stressed out.